I tried not to believe my eyes but it was just not working because it was all too clear. Yes,that was my boyfriend over there and who was the skinny girl whose waist he seemed to hold on tight to like his life support?I had no idea.
I felt following them was immature but curiosity got the better part of me. I followed them quietly like a shadow into the hotel and waited for them to check in before I continued my mission. He started kissing her even before he opened the door and at that moment I felt like the green arrow missed a target and it shot straight to the middle of my heart. I couldn't believe he was the same guy that talks to me about family and marriage. I gathered courage anyway and knocked,he hesitated before opening the door and when he did,I was waiting for surprise,shock or even regret to show on his face but I saw something that looked like gladness instead. I was heartbroken, couldn't even make a sound,with a teary eye I just kept on staring.
Then his girlfriend came out and made the statement I could destroy the world for.."Who is this fatty?" I was wishing and hoping you wouldn't say a word or mabye tell me its not what I think or something else. But he did make a statement and in his words exactly "the burden I told you about". I couldn't stay a second longer,I stormed out of the place and practically hopped into a speeding taxi. I couldn't go to the house I shared with him because it wouldn't feel like home. I went to a friend's place and it took me sometime to get myself together. The mistake I made was to think about their words even for a day. I didn't let their words break me because their words didn't make me. It didn't stop me from loving myself,I even cherished my body more. My mum told me that being happy is the only revenge worth it. I made Meghan Trainors all about the bass my best song and Tess Hollidays story was something I read say and night.
As a plus size,the worst thing you can do to yourself is to believe people's words and opinions about you. If your man breaks up with you because of your size then he has never loved you. Don't hate yourself because of it just thank him and move on. Don't lock yourself up and cry about not being skinny. He didn't break up because of your size,he simply is a jerk who doesn't know the value of thick curvy girls.
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